Being honest about who I am

I feel that it's time for me to be honest to myself and get all of my beliefs, ideas, thoughts, feelings out for my own sake. I am on a journey to learn to love myself...My first step is being honest about who I am.

I am so scared I will fail at anything I try, sometimes I think I set myself up for failure. This is something I have been trying to over come for years, I know it my heart I am smart. I know I can succeed, but there is always that fear lingering...I can't make it go away. After years of being told that I will never be anything, a failure I guess it kind of embeds itself deep inside. Trying to get rid of those thoughts has become an impossible feat for me, I can push them aside but not rid myself of them. It has infected every part of me.

I don't believe in god, but I also believe no religion is wrong. Everyone has the right to believe what they want.
I believe everyone is entitled to their own opinion.
I believe in the power of the heart and mind.
I believe in ghosts, I have seen to many to not believe.
I believe there are Spirits/Angels watching over us.
I believe all people are created equal.
I believe love is blind.
I believe in fate and karma.
I believe everyone has a soul mate out there somewhere.
I don't believe money makes a person, take away the material things and what's left?
I don't think anyone is better than anyone else.
I believe being different is ok.
I believe you can't judge people by what they look like.
I believe there are truly good people out there.
I believe if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything!


I would love to say I believe in forgiveness, but I don't. I can let go of some things, but there are many things I never truly forgive.
If I become your friend you will have all of me, I will always be there, I will always listen and hear what you are saying, I will be there waiting to hug you when you do something I think is stupid and get hurt, I will not abandon you, I will respect your beliefs and your feelings...But I will expect the same from you. There are very few people I have met that are willing to give what they get, and because of this I have very few friends. But the friends I do have mean the world to me and have helped me more than you know.

I am not the type of person who needs material things...I would rather have a heart felt card with heart felt journaling than a diamond. I need to be told thank you when I do things for you, I don't want money. If I make you dinner, say thank you...That is all I ask, a simple thank you...If it was good and you liked it, tell me so...If it could have been better, tell me so I can do better next time. I need to hear these things. I don't mind helping, I don't mind going out of my way, if I have plans and you need something I will drop everything for you...All I want is a THANK YOU!
If I am upset, don't leave me...Give me a hug, I would do the same for you.
I am done doing things for people who find it to much of an inconvenience to even say thank you...I have said it a hundred times and keep doing, but I am done. I can't keep doing this to myself.




















Kit "Mocha Valentine" by Booland Designs
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